October 2010
8 posts
change
I’m gonna start positive changes.
such as
Bible devotions
get on track of prayer again
deleting bad music:/ (gonna be so
hard)
stop trying to control my future
leave it up to God:)
stop trying to make everything my way.
like previously stated- ease up on sarcasm and be gentle and still myself though
it’s gonna happen …
it will
siiighh
so i love finding news that people don’t like me on campus. it makes being around them in a small campus so much more fun.. like honestly…. this is the most bittersweet experience i’ve ever truly had:/i love it but then i realize how much i’m missing out on here and then i begin to hate it:(
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listless
I literally have no emotion to describe how I’m feeling at the moments.
I’m jealous of people.
anxious about my papers.
stomach ache from eating.
headache.
regretting a good amount of stuff I’ve done.
wishing things would happen that never will.
loving school though.mind you.
pissed at some people.
worried about others.
annoyed with others.
getting bad vibes from some.
feeling...
why?
since when are parents right?
okay a lot but seriously;
i guess my sarcasm is coming across bitchy
fuuuuuuuuuuudge
things need to change NOW.
wasssup
so what is wrong with me?
i suppose today is just an off day,
this days SUCKS:/.
for realz.
i’m in a eh kind of mood.
but like have this sort of like up lifting thing inside but i can’t figure it out.
wait i just did..
JESUS
thoughts.
i’m really sarcastic. and opinionated… especially about music. i guess i come across like a bitch:/ i really don’t mean to. i just state how i feel about the music. but thats not what i’m blogging about. i don’t even know why i bother posting stuff like this since no one reads this but i’m bored of minnesota and ready to go back to iowa (WTF) but seriously i...
minneapolis
being back for even these short amount of days has been awesome.
i missed caribou, chipotle, tea garden, uptown , downtown, st.paul and driving in general
i forgot how much i love minnesota but at the same time how much i need to be back in school.
i miss Dordt, the campus and everything
tristate please hurry up and end.
self.
well i thought about writing this for a while.
i am self-concious. i have had an eating disorder. i used to self-injure.
being here at college i have been challenged in so many ways, in my faith and in my strength. i really do not want to turn back to either of those ways of a life style but sometimes being here and seeing all the skinny/pretty girls getting attention it brings me right back to...
